My New Favorite Picture of ME

My DH took this picture on our last big vacation to Wyoming. We found this old wagon on a hike and he "just knew" it would be a great picture. I feel that it shows such a relaxed version of myself. It is also me at my heighest weight ever- and I still feel pretty. Now, I am working on improving my health and fitness which includes losing weight but I never want to lose that feeling of liking myself AS I AM.

My new best friend!

I have been concentrating a great deal on my own health and fitness- man does it take a lot of work to change lifelong habits! I want to be the best me I can be which includes being able to run up and down the stairs of my house without breathing hard. Pretty proud of myself though, I bought myself an elliptical and I LOVE it. I actually use it for its purpose- not just to hang stuff on-my DH is truly impressed!

I want to be the mom joggin' on the street with kiddo in the runner stroller. Yummy mummy for me! I just decided that if I have this year to wait for a referral (never sure if I spell that properly) I might as well use it to focus on improving myself. Goodness knows that once my bebe is home life will change and, while I can hardly wait for that change, might as well use my last year wisely! Take care of yourselves today, and don't forget to say something nice about your body when you look in the mirror ladies-its crucial to self image!!!

I'm Back

Thank goodness for 2009! A new year, a new start. I have new found energy, motivation, and perspective!!! Getting to see my family over the holidays was a true blessing for me. I haven't spent Christmas with them in 6 years so this was very important to me. I think the greatest gift that I received was from my father. He and I sat and talked about the adoption in great depth. I shared my fears with him my hopes and we talked like we haven't talked in ... a really long time. I think I healed parts of me that I didn't know were broken.

Also, we are creeping up on 6 months waiting now, and I am fine with that. Every month that passes is another month of savings we can build, research we can read, and preparing our lives for the changes that a baby brings.

Peace is finally in my heart. It feels good.

Trying to hold on...

As if this year hasn't been hard enough, I lost a good friend last night. She went to sleep and never woke up. That is not supposed to happen to a young woman in her 20's, especially one with a beautiful toddler that needs her love.

This is a year of loss and my heart is breaking again, my dear friend Daphne having passed away about 3 months ago. I am just trying to make it through the next three days...I'll be with family for the holidays and darn it- I want my MOMMY! 2008 has been a crappy year, I am realllllly hoping that 2009 is an improvement.

Counting Down the Days

We're off to Grandma's house in exactly 9 days. I need to get outta here! Looking forward to all that fabulous Czech food. The diet could be in serious jeopardy. Unless my nagging, I mean loving husband keeps me in check (no pun intended). I think some long walks dreaming of our future together will be in order.

Celebrating 5 Months of Waiting by......

Elfing Ourselves! What can I say, it's better than shouting at the world that THIS IS NOT FAIR!!!! Hmmm I feel better now. Enjoy the show!

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Crazy Christmas Pageant Time!

I am soooo pumped about this years Christmas performance. My kiddos are going to sing/sign Silent Night. Yes this has been done before, but I am putting a few twists into it. We will sing one verse with hands behind backs, regular lighting, piano etc. students all dressed in black. Then, we switch lighting to black lights, hands come out covered in white gloves and we sign the rest in absolute silence. In the clip it shows a choir doing it in silence and it is soooo powerful. I can just imagine how it will look with the dramatic effects of lighting and costumes! Plus, I was able to book a wonderful community member who is an ASL interpreter to get us started!



The next weeks should really fly by! I hope everyone is feeling excited and hopeful about the holidays. Remember- this is the time of year when anything can happen!