Not a Teen Anymore

Here is my problem...I keep trying to reach the finish line in this jalopy. What I need to make a pit stop and switch out for this car! Surely we can make it to the finish line faster now!





Woohoo, here's celebrating 20 months of waiting as of this coming Friday.

Question For Those in the Know

I don't want to call the agency and bug them right now so can anyone tell me if timelines are faster or slower for those families requesting singleton's instead of siblings? Most people whose blogs I read lately seem to be requesting sibs and I am a little freaked out by some of the timelines I am hearing about. As my beloved husband and I approach 20 months DTC we are trying to figure out some kind of timeline...I thought I had it all figured out but..............I am just not sure anymore. If it helps our basic requests were: infant to age 3, either sex.

I had been hoping for a June referral which would be around the 23rd month of waiting. Am I setting myself up for utter disappointment? Should I just tell myself (and all of the eagerly awaiting extended family) not to hope for anything until Septemberish (26 months?)


HELP I am slowly losing my mind (as each month passes)!!!!

Trying to Manifest...and oh yeah a pic of me

Ok, so I am hearing a lot of talking lately about bringing about the life/desires one wishes by willing them into being-aka "The Secret". I must be doing something wrong because no amount of my "willing" is moving ANYONE any faster in the adoption process. I have been trying to use my incredible powers of the mind to speed along all of the paperwork, glitches, etc that other adoptive families are facing. Hoping of course that this will help our referral to arrive more quickly. No such luck. I am quite sure there are many others out there "willing" with me....

Looking ahead....hmmm referral hopefully by June/July (I hope I hope I hope), waiting waiting waiting for court-what averaging 5-8 months right?...all the other paperwork/visa hoops to jump through.....I'll be LUCKY to have this wonderful Bebe home by hmmmmm let's do the math......earliest probably Jan 2011, latest could be....well we just won't even go there! I am not going to give that thought a chance to "manifest" itself. This is getting to the point of being kinda crazy. Manifest schmanifest....

A good friend did a photoshoot after my last performance (hence the slightly sweaty look) and I quite liked this photo. Keep in mind this was taken pre-weightloss!

Success!

As of Saturday I am down 10 inches since October! This means my hiney (from which I lost 2 of those 10 inches) is that much closer to being comfortable in the airplane seat on my long trip to Ethiopia!

Attitude Shift...

I felt like this this morning:





Then this helped cheer me up. So did the prospect of the weekend and a raise at work! Suddenly life doesn't seem all that bad. Pretty sure it was all the kitty though!

Bummed...

Don't know why but I am feeling so bummed today about the whole process. For some reason it feels like the adoption process is unending with fun dashes of terror about all the different things that can go wrong with the process. I feel terrible because sometimes I think its not worth it- all of the stress and waiting. Maybe it would just be easier to give up altogether. I mean we have a pretty awesome life with just the two of us.

But then I see a Mom with her children at the mall, or at the school and I think, I WANT THAT!!! That relationship, the love, even the cruddy times (sick kids, crabby, etc).

I don't know, I guess I am just confused.


Bummer...

The Promise of a New Year

The New Year has started out right! We've officially hit 18 months waiting. I celebrated by taking a girlfriend down to the US and doing some damage in the shopping malls! Keep in mind this was my friends' first trip ever to the US, so it was fun seeing her experience my home country for the first time. Not to mention clearing up a few erroneously held stereotypes she had about Americans. Seriously, do you really think there are THAT many stupid Americanos that would strap skiis to their cars in the summertime? I mean think about that,how many people claim to know someone who has seen that...is it really possible, or just urban legend that lets us feel more awesome? She was also very surprised at how good the service was in restaurants...having been told that American wait staff are rude etc etc...I mean come on, are there no bad waiters in Canada? I'm just saying...don't be a hater. I love both of my countries. And yes, I work equally hard to represent Canada positivly to my American bretheren as well. No, we don't all say "Eh", "aboot" etc.
Ok, apparently I needed to get that out...carrying on with the fun stuff... :)

Found a great pair of jeans. There is just something about finding jeans that make your butt look good that makes a girl smile. Especially since it was a size smaller than I used to wear. That's right folks, I am officially down three sizes from this summer! Zumba is rocking my world.

I teach my first official ZUMBA class on Thursday. A little nervous...I am worried people are going to be thinking "That chubby girl is going to teach me fitness?" and walk out. So my plan is just to address that right at the start of the class. I want to use a combination of humour and my own personal quest for fitness (not to mention the fact that I am the only one in our rural area with the training) to address this issue. Then blow their socks off with a fun hour!