Friday, January 30, 2009

7 Months and Still Smiling

Hard to believe but this weekend marks the beginning of our 7th month of waiting. Laughable really when you consider that this journey began almost from the day that we were married 4 1/2 years ago. Still, I am convinced that God truly does have a plan for us and is one heckuva lot smarter than we are.

I think that I am going to be ok right up until month 12 which is July for us...and my summer break. As long as I am busy I am good... but I think the long summer months might drive me batty. I am already making MANY plans to keep myself distracted during that time frame. Maybe a summer get together with other adoptive moms?

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Waiting with Baited Breath

To all of my fellow "ladies in waiting" aka Moms on the adoption lists with CAFAC -all the best!!! Many people are eagerly waiting to hear if their name will be called to recieve a referral. I know there isn't a hope in H*&& that I will be called so I am just hoping and praying that this time is your time!!!! These are our labour will hurt, you will panic, the "cramps" will keep you up at night. Just don't forget to breathe: hee hee hoo hee hee hoo...

Monday, January 19, 2009

My New Favorite Picture of ME

My DH took this picture on our last big vacation to Wyoming. We found this old wagon on a hike and he "just knew" it would be a great picture. I feel that it shows such a relaxed version of myself. It is also me at my heighest weight ever- and I still feel pretty. Now, I am working on improving my health and fitness which includes losing weight but I never want to lose that feeling of liking myself AS I AM.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

My new best friend!

I have been concentrating a great deal on my own health and fitness- man does it take a lot of work to change lifelong habits! I want to be the best me I can be which includes being able to run up and down the stairs of my house without breathing hard. Pretty proud of myself though, I bought myself an elliptical and I LOVE it. I actually use it for its purpose- not just to hang stuff on-my DH is truly impressed!

I want to be the mom joggin' on the street with kiddo in the runner stroller. Yummy mummy for me! I just decided that if I have this year to wait for a referral (never sure if I spell that properly) I might as well use it to focus on improving myself. Goodness knows that once my bebe is home life will change and, while I can hardly wait for that change, might as well use my last year wisely! Take care of yourselves today, and don't forget to say something nice about your body when you look in the mirror ladies-its crucial to self image!!!

Monday, January 5, 2009

I'm Back

Thank goodness for 2009! A new year, a new start. I have new found energy, motivation, and perspective!!! Getting to see my family over the holidays was a true blessing for me. I haven't spent Christmas with them in 6 years so this was very important to me. I think the greatest gift that I received was from my father. He and I sat and talked about the adoption in great depth. I shared my fears with him my hopes and we talked like we haven't talked in ... a really long time. I think I healed parts of me that I didn't know were broken.

Also, we are creeping up on 6 months waiting now, and I am fine with that. Every month that passes is another month of savings we can build, research we can read, and preparing our lives for the changes that a baby brings.

Peace is finally in my heart. It feels good.